Well...I must say I like this venue....at least its better than getting drunk, or cutting oneself....today has been one of the worst days .....I have never felt so alone in all my life...and no I am not suicidal or any of that shit but I must say this is the lowest I have ever been since I was a teenager...when I used to get my books knocked out from my arms...when people picked at me for being different...when my nickname was "problem child"...I think maybe emergency therapy may be in order...it helped before...can't help the feeling that something really bad is coming down the road....just will handle it as I always have though...with sheer determination....maybe it won't be so bad who knows!....